
“Very interesting reading it might be made, too,” remarked Sherlock Holmes, sticking a small piece of plaster over the prick on his finger. “I have to be careful,” he continued, turning to me with a smile, “for I dabble with poisons a good deal.” He held out his hand as he spoke, and I noticed that it was all mottled over with similar pieces of plaster, and discoloured with strong acids.
“We came here on business,” said Stamford, sitting down on a high three-legged stool, and pushing another one in my direction with his foot. “My friend here wants to take diggings; and as you were complaining that you could get no one to go halves with you, I thought that I had better bring you together.”
Sherlock Holmes seemed delighted at the idea of sharing his rooms with me. “I have my eye on a suite in Baker Street,” he said, “which would suit us down to the ground. You don’t mind the smell of strong tobacco, I hope?”
“I always smoke ‘ship’s’ myself,” I answered.
“That’s good enough. I generally have have chemicals about, and occasionally do experiments. Would that annoy you?”
“By no means.”
“Let me see — what are my other shortcomings? I get in the dumps at times, and don’t open my mouth for days on end. You must not think I am sulky when I do that. Just let me alone, and I’ll soon be right. What have you to confess now? It’s just as well for two fellows to know the worst of one another before they begin to live together.”
I laughed at this cross-examination. “I keep a bull pup,” I said, “and I object to rows because my nerves are shaken, and I get up at all sorts of ungodly hours, and I am extremely lazy. I have another set of vices when I’m well, but those are the principal ones at present.”
“Do you include violin playing in your category of rows?” he asked, anxiously.
“It depends on the player,” I answered. “A well-played violin is a treat for the gods — a badly played one —”
“Oh, that’s all right,” he cried, with a merry laugh. “I think we may consider the thing as settled — that is if the rooms are agreeable to you.”
“When shall we see them?”
“Call for me here at noon to-morrow, and we’ll go together and settle everything,” he answered.
“All right — noon exactly,” said I, shaking his hand.
We left him working among his chemicals, and we walked together towards my hotel.
“By the way,” I asked suddenly, stopping and turning upon Stamford, “how the deuce did he know that I had come from Afghanistan?”
My companion smiled an enigmatical smile. “That’s just his little peculiarity,” he said. “A good many people have wanted to know how he finds things out.”
“Oh! a mystery is it?” I cried, rubbing my hands. “This is very piquant. I am much obliged to you for bringing us together. ‘The proper study of mankind is man,’ you know.”
‘Why?’ he repeated, in his strange, soft, penetrating voice.
She looked round at him, rather defiantly.
‘Because I said I was going to be married tomorrow, and he bullied me.’
‘Why did he bully you?’
Her mouth dropped again, she remembered the scene once more, the tears came up.
‘Because I said he didn’t care—and he doesn’t, it’s only his domineeringness that’s hurt—’ she said, her mouth pulled awry by her weeping, all the time she spoke, so that he almost smiled, it seemed so childish. Yet it was not childish, it was a mortal conflict, a deep wound.
‘It isn’t quite true,’ he said. ‘And even so, you shouldn’t SAY it.’
‘It IS true—it IS true,’ she wept, ‘and I won’t be bullied by his pretending it’s love—when it ISN’T—he doesn’t care, how can he—no, he can’t–’
He sat in silence. She moved him beyond himself.
‘Then you shouldn’t rouse him, if he can’t,’ replied Birkin quietly.
‘And I HAVE loved him, I have,’ she wept. ‘I’ve loved him always, and he’s always done this to me, he has—’
‘It’s been a love of opposition, then,’ he said. ‘Never mind—it will be all right. It’s nothing desperate.’
‘Yes,’ she wept, ‘it is, it is.’
‘Why?’
‘I shall never see him again—’
‘Not immediately. Don’t cry, you had to break with him, it had to be—don’t cry.’
He went over to her and kissed her fine, fragile hair, touching her wet cheeks gently.
‘Don’t cry,’ he repeated, ‘don’t cry any more.’
He held her head close against him, very close and quiet.
At last she was still. Then she looked up, her eyes wide and frightened.
‘Don’t you want me?’ she asked.
‘Want you?’ His darkened, steady eyes puzzled her and did not give her play.
‘Do you wish I hadn’t come?’ she asked, anxious now again for fear she might be out of place.
‘No,’ he said. ‘I wish there hadn’t been the violence—so much ugliness—but perhaps it was inevitable.’
She watched him in silence. He seemed deadened.
‘But where shall I stay?’ she asked, feeling humiliated.
He thought for a moment.
‘Here, with me,’ he said. ‘We’re married as much today as we shall be tomorrow.’
‘But—’
‘I’ll tell Mrs Varley,’ he said. ‘Never mind now.’
He sat looking at her. She could feel his darkened steady eyes looking at her all the time. It made her a little bit frightened. She pushed her hair off her forehead nervously.
‘Do I look ugly?’ she said.
And she blew her nose again.
A small smile came round his eyes.